My experience with God

God is a divine power around us. God is invisible; invincible. I have seen God many times. I mean I felt God’s presence when I was in trouble. It was when I was in school in the tenth standard. Who would think a pen will bring havoc? My grandfather had a ‘Parker pen’ with which he used to write stamp paper when he was at service. After his death it was lying useless and out of order in the table’s drawer. Somehow it fascinated me. I made the stubborn pen write and I would write with it. When the school conducted annual sports every year all students had to attend. The teacher ordered us to go to the playground leaving the books in the class room. After the sports got over I came back and found my geometry box in which I had kept the pen missing. I searched everywhere to no avail. Why only my box? I don’t know the motive for the theft, but I can guess. Some rowdies roaming around there would have done it. I can imagine my mother’s reaction when I lost something. Trembling with fear I entered the house and told her what had happened. She was not ready to listen anything I said. She started throwing curses and abuses at me. Luckily she didn’t beat me. Instead she decided to give me a better punishment. I didn’t get a pen for my prelims; told me to write with the old useless dipping pen. With much difficulty I wrote the first two exams when the rest of the students, some of them poor, were writing with a fountain pen. I went without a pen for the third exam thinking that my classmate will give me one. I asked my friends and all classmates for a pen. They didn’t give me one. When the first bell to attend the class rang I was standing outside my exam hall when every student was in. I was drenched with cold sweat in fear of confronting the supervisor. I prayed and prayed deeper from my heart. When I was about to weep I saw one of my classmates coming from the toilet. I told her my plight. Luckily she had brought three pens and was willing to give me one of them and told me to keep it until the exams were over. I wept, but with a sigh of relief and thanked her and God. I think God might have heard my prayer and came disguised as her. If it was not for her I would have failed. My grandmother said, “How dare she go for the exams without a pen?” I was not daring, I was helpless. If they are not ready to understand my plight it is their fault. My mother was self-centered and adamant. She would torture me mentally always, I would tolerate. But it was too much. After my marriage I left her forever. Still now I cannot help weeping when I think about the incident. At age15, Saturn will come in opposition with the natal Saturn which was the reason for my mental torture and trouble that I had gone through. Your prayer will be heard if you are good-willed. So trust in God.

Mother Nature

Mother Nature is our queen, she rules us. But we human beings, her subjects are not yielding to her. So she gets angry and goes berserk at times. From her wrath produce tsunami, earthquakes, hurricane and all disasters. Thus we suffer a huge loss. She asks us, why do you create beyond my creations and beyond my limitations? We don’t pay any heed to her. Our greed is the only answer. For our greed we perish. We ignore the fact that she has created us out of the five elements from her person. Her creations are wonderful, but not everlasting. It is her way to make us as toys to destroy.Our metamorphosis from the ugly primitive man to the well-groomed super human beings is because of the changing life style. If we hadn’t learned to make houses we would have lived amidst woods and animals fighting each other and fighting with wild animals for which we become prey. Then a few strong would have survived. There would be no population problem at all. Many would have died of food poison, from poisonous snakes and insect bites, from wild animals attack and incurable diseases. Our skin would be hairy and animal-like hide. The only difference from animals is we have got two hands instead of four legs. So we can do good or bad and create the things good or bad with them. Creations are good but not to be harmful. Creative sense has changed us.Nowadays people seem overly concerned about animals and neglect human beings. Mass deaths occur by vehicle accidents, violence and other disasters. Why do we need to take care of wild animals since they are enemies to human beings or vice versa? They know how to protect and they are more aware of the universe and stronger than human beings. All creatures have sense of their survival. One month old pups know how to protect from cold weather, they cuddle up together. One month old our infant is totally helpless. If we hadn’t safe houses, who would want to protect animals? Steve Irvin took risk to show people animal life, but ironically a harmless creature caused his death. And some other animal keepers have died by animals attack. If we think we are superior, it is wrong. Invisible viruses are superior to humn beings. Animals get food free and don’t do any work. We have to work to earn money for food. Actually we are born to live on what we get on this earth and to become prey for carnivorous animals. We do not let the food chain to be linked. Now we extend our life span by more protection. But Nature doesn’t seem to be accepting it. Now early deaths occur by too much modernization. We wish to have more development and more luxuries. Our needs are beyond limit. Too much luxury makes man more delicate, good looking but good for nothing. Super brains are behind advanced technologies. Yet ignorance exists. We are not practical in life. We have to learn the art of living. Large houses with one or two storey and large compounds should be built instead of multi-storeyed buildings. So that more family members can live together. When more members live together family has strength. A joint family will be a heaven if members are good-willed and have understanding. Buildings more than a coconut palm’s height are against the Nature’s rules and difficult to maintain. Mud houses in the villages have more life than high rise buildings. There were no drainage problems in the villages. Earth (soil) absorbs human and animal excreta and it makes natural manure. High rise buildings need more water, electricity and drainage system. Where will the dirty water go? It will mix with the rain water during monsoon. Rivers of dirty water by drainage system are flowing under the earth all over the world. Water cannot absorb wastes. I don’t understand what is global warming. Forest fire is common ever since the birth of the earth. Smoke emanating steam engines were a constant pollution. Now those are out of track. We ourselves are responsible for all our problems. Destroying greenery, rock blasting and harmful chemical productions are harmful to the earth and human beings. Greenery keeps the earth pollution-free. Animals don’t destroy the earth. It is human beings who do it, if extinct earth will get relief from tension and it will round up again. We do everything in excess that goes beyond Nature’s tolerance. So let us beg pardon and obey her command.

Conjugal Bliss

It is a wrong notion that after marriage couple has to fulfill their conjugal bliss up to the end. Sexual behavior varies from person to person. Planets’ influence must be the reason. Sex shouldn’t be a routine like having meals or other things. It depends on your health, strength and mood. Often one of the couple is more or less sexual. Taking medicine to increase sexual desire and sex addiction will affect health. Highly sexual man is born, not made. Sensibility is needed for sensuality. Sex is not to be used just for fun and money. Nature has given us sexual feeling for reproduction and the human race to go on. The problem is that human beings have to depend on only one partner. It leads to demanding, demanding leads to violence, violence leads to hatred, separation and divorce. Demanding for sex is ignorance among human beings. Observe animals and learn from them. They lead life as Nature has decided. Though they have no restriction in mating and no relationship such as mother, father, brother, sister, they also keep certain rules. They have a particular season for mating. Females have the right to put up resistance if they don’t want to mate. After conceiving and giving birth they will not allow males to come closer until they regained health and strength and ready for another term. How ignorant human beings are! Man will say to his wife, “You are my wife, you should obey, other wise why do you live with me?” Animals don’t say this. They have equal right. If couple abstains from sex at times nothing will happen. It is good for health and to refresh relation. Husband and wife should not be slave to each other. Enough time, space and freedom are needed between both. But if we were animal-like, insecure relation would have affected life. Rules and regulations are made to discipline human beings and for a secure life. We suppress the emotions for the sake of civilization and culture. Everything goes unnatural in our life. Everyone should understand the family life‘s value. The satisfaction you get from well settled family life is much more than the sexual satisfaction. But if planets’ negative influence makes your relationship miserable I am helpless; my advice is useless.